cuap-cuap si ranii

dearest (my) Life,
banyak hal yang aku lewati, tanpamu. banyak peristiwa juga yang kualami tanpa kau menjadi saksinya. ga peduli betapa penting, atau malah ga berartinyaa hal-hal itu, aku tetap ingin melaluinya bersamamu. tapi aku sadar. aku ga boleh egois. tepatnya, aku ga bisa egois. aku harus berlaku adil kepadamu. atau, mungkin kamu yang seharusnya bersikap adil terhadapku? ga tau deh. apapun itu. bagaimanapun jalan yang mesti kita tempuh, tujuan kita mungkin saja sama. dan karenanya, jangan sampai kau melepasku, sebelum kita mencapai tujuan itu. genggam terus jemariku, peluk erat tubuhku, dan jagalah hati serta jiwaku, sampai di garis finish.
namun, jika di tengah jalan engkau tak sanggup lagi. akupun ga akan memaksa kamu untuk tetap melaju. kamu ga terikat padaku, meski hati kita sedang terpaut kini. kau selalu bisa melepaskan ikatanmu denganku,

My dad has called my this morning. He asked about my fever, and asked me to go home a.s.a.p.. Well, on this case, off course, home is my very best hope. But, there's something I should finish here too. So, this is take my patience very painful. itu artinya apa sih sebenarnya? Koq kacau gitu?

Back..

Besides asked my healthy, dad also told me about job. He offers a good job for me. Well, I can't tell you where's he offered me :) but, I think I really really need that job when I come home later. I didn't answer his offering, I tell him that I'll think carefully.

Uuum~ deep inside, I feel happy that i'll get a good job in my hometown. But, I often think if I'm not the right man for those job. Am I capable for that? I mean, many friends of mine is smarter than me. But, they (still) unemployed. They're jobless and just waiting for an interview. Me? What's my ability in bank area? I absolutely blind about this major.

Am I deserved to this job? Will I say 'yes' while I could do nothing then? Huh!



footnote :
*maav bahasa Inggrisnya kacau :(*